I experienced a shift in consciousness when i made friends with “my ego”.
Until that moment, i had always experienced my ego as an outside person, stronger than me, who would always prevent me from doing this or that, or persuade me to do such and so.
Then, one night, i was attending a lecture at the esoteric school that i joined. The teacher was speaking about the law of two, the law of apparently opposites. Black and white, thumb and fingers, red and white bloodcells. He instructed us to seek 1,000 examples of this law of two; and if you don't get it by then, he added, seek another 1,000 examples, until you do.
Further instruction included counting. He said our mind loves to count, so when you're on the road, count cars, lamp posts, trees, it really doesn't matter what you count.
So i was on my way to the south of the Netherlands. And i was counting. You know, my mind just LOVED it. I was having a great time. I thought.
And suddenly, there was this shift. Suddenly, i came to realize that my mind was no longer protecting me. While my mind was counting, i was seeking examples of the law of two. And all of a sudden, my mind came back to me from playing. “What are you doing?” it asked. And i had to confess that i was collecting samples of the law of two. My mind realized that it was inevitably going to be affected by this collecting of samples. And i got really sad. In fact i cried my eyes out.
It was then that i realized my mind had been my guard all along. Like Peter and the Wolf, little Peter with his wooden gun, guarding the house while i was away. Brave on the outside, but scared on the inside, longing for me to come home.
That is where i made friends with my ego, with my mind.
Best regards, Ron
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Friday, July 07, 2006
ATTN: A new theory of attention - part one
Love and attention are the high and low tide of our energy system.
Love is the food, flowing from the whole to its parts.
Where there is a movement, there is also a countermovement.
Attention is the the existential emptiness, the flow backwards from the parts to their whole.
And then there is the holon, the whole for its parts and the part within the whole.
When we consider love and attention, whole and parts, there are several orders to be observed.
One is time, where the parent is born before the child. And so the parent is the whole.
The child pays attention to the parent, in order to receive the love from the parent. And the parent decides how and when they will give their love to their child. This is what brings about conditioning.
One is again time, where the person was a child before he became an adult. Let's name the person as a child the "inner child", then the adult pays attention to the inner child. This inner child then radiates love to the adult. Such love is often called passion, or pain, or creativity, depending on context.
In nature, love and attention are seldomly used. For love, the word food usually applies. And for attention, it seems there is no word. The mother bird flies to the nest with a wurm in her mouth. The young birds spread their mouth wide open. Love is the food. What are the wide open mouths? Do young birds pay attention to their mother?
The last example in this part one, is where the whole is the woman and the parts are the man. Use other words if you like. For the woman: female energy, the intuition. For the man: male energy, the mind. So the mind pays attention to the intuition. And the intuition radiates love to the mind.
Why is this all of any importance? Consider the human being a drop of water in the ocean of love and attention. Would a drop of water ever get tired? So why would a human being get tired? Of what?
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yes absolutely
i think love and attention are the tides of our own psychic energy system.
in responding to your message, i wanted to use the word "chi" for psychic energy. i looked up the word in wikipedia and could not find it. then searched for energy and landed here :
Conservation of energy states that the total amount of energy (including potential energy) in a closed system remains constant. In other words, energy can be converted from one form to another, but it cannot be created or destroyed. In modern physics, all forms of energy exhibit mass and all mass is a form of energy.
I think love and attention also obey this rule. Paying attention is creating space. Quantum theory represents an object differently depending on whether it is being observed or not being observed. During the act of measurement, the mathematical description abruptly shifts--from a spread-out range of possible attributes (unmeasured object) to single-valued actual attributes (measured object).
The word "mass" reminds me of attention-related words. For instance, the word "important" has the element of the Latin "importare" = to carry in". Important=strongly affecting the course of events or the nature of things - so there again i see how attention "creates" reality.
For the word mass i currently use "fixed attention".
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yes i have read the book by Gary Chapman.
What you are referring to , i had in mind to make this part two of a series.
Here's the imaginary situation :
the mother rejects the way in which her husband pays her attention. next, she will find herself inhibited to radiate love to him. And so her desire to have children grows. The child will be a boy. He will then become her husband. This body needs love, and his mother is prepared to give him love, provided that he judges his father and finds him incompetent to love his mother. Next the boy receives love, he takes his father's place and suddenly he feels a deep emptiness inside. This boy has gone away from his place as a child. No longer has he got a father, no longer can he be a child.
For the holon, the chain of events, the karma, it does not matter whether you follow the boy into his marriage, where you can easily predict what kind of a woman he will marry and how similar his marriage will be; or to follow his mother back into her childhood, where she could not be a child and now, as a mother, wants to share her deepest feeling in the only way possible : by having her son experience as a child exactly what she as a child went through.
As for God, here's a quote from Bert Hellinger that resonates with me, about human greatness - which is essentially what the word God means for me:
Some time ago, I was reading texts of Kungtse. When I read these texts, I understood something about human greatness. What I understood from his writings was: What is greatest in human beings is what makes them equal to everybody else. Everything else that deviates higher or lower from what is common to all human beings makes us less. If we know this, we can develop a deep respect for every human being.
-- Bert Hellinger
Love is the food, flowing from the whole to its parts.
Where there is a movement, there is also a countermovement.
Attention is the the existential emptiness, the flow backwards from the parts to their whole.
And then there is the holon, the whole for its parts and the part within the whole.
When we consider love and attention, whole and parts, there are several orders to be observed.
One is time, where the parent is born before the child. And so the parent is the whole.
The child pays attention to the parent, in order to receive the love from the parent. And the parent decides how and when they will give their love to their child. This is what brings about conditioning.
One is again time, where the person was a child before he became an adult. Let's name the person as a child the "inner child", then the adult pays attention to the inner child. This inner child then radiates love to the adult. Such love is often called passion, or pain, or creativity, depending on context.
In nature, love and attention are seldomly used. For love, the word food usually applies. And for attention, it seems there is no word. The mother bird flies to the nest with a wurm in her mouth. The young birds spread their mouth wide open. Love is the food. What are the wide open mouths? Do young birds pay attention to their mother?
The last example in this part one, is where the whole is the woman and the parts are the man. Use other words if you like. For the woman: female energy, the intuition. For the man: male energy, the mind. So the mind pays attention to the intuition. And the intuition radiates love to the mind.
Why is this all of any importance? Consider the human being a drop of water in the ocean of love and attention. Would a drop of water ever get tired? So why would a human being get tired? Of what?
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Additional comments from this same Ecademy blog :
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yes absolutely
i think love and attention are the tides of our own psychic energy system.
in responding to your message, i wanted to use the word "chi" for psychic energy. i looked up the word in wikipedia and could not find it. then searched for energy and landed here :
Conservation of energy states that the total amount of energy (including potential energy) in a closed system remains constant. In other words, energy can be converted from one form to another, but it cannot be created or destroyed. In modern physics, all forms of energy exhibit mass and all mass is a form of energy.
I think love and attention also obey this rule. Paying attention is creating space. Quantum theory represents an object differently depending on whether it is being observed or not being observed. During the act of measurement, the mathematical description abruptly shifts--from a spread-out range of possible attributes (unmeasured object) to single-valued actual attributes (measured object).
The word "mass" reminds me of attention-related words. For instance, the word "important" has the element of the Latin "importare" = to carry in". Important=strongly affecting the course of events or the nature of things - so there again i see how attention "creates" reality.
For the word mass i currently use "fixed attention".
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yes i have read the book by Gary Chapman.
What you are referring to , i had in mind to make this part two of a series.
Here's the imaginary situation :
the mother rejects the way in which her husband pays her attention. next, she will find herself inhibited to radiate love to him. And so her desire to have children grows. The child will be a boy. He will then become her husband. This body needs love, and his mother is prepared to give him love, provided that he judges his father and finds him incompetent to love his mother. Next the boy receives love, he takes his father's place and suddenly he feels a deep emptiness inside. This boy has gone away from his place as a child. No longer has he got a father, no longer can he be a child.
For the holon, the chain of events, the karma, it does not matter whether you follow the boy into his marriage, where you can easily predict what kind of a woman he will marry and how similar his marriage will be; or to follow his mother back into her childhood, where she could not be a child and now, as a mother, wants to share her deepest feeling in the only way possible : by having her son experience as a child exactly what she as a child went through.
As for God, here's a quote from Bert Hellinger that resonates with me, about human greatness - which is essentially what the word God means for me:
Some time ago, I was reading texts of Kungtse. When I read these texts, I understood something about human greatness. What I understood from his writings was: What is greatest in human beings is what makes them equal to everybody else. Everything else that deviates higher or lower from what is common to all human beings makes us less. If we know this, we can develop a deep respect for every human being.
-- Bert Hellinger
Monday, June 12, 2006
PG: Reasons to say NO when somebody offers to make you RICH
Should you need any help with cash flow, consider Dennis Barker. Dennis has been one of the first people on Ecademy who i associated my work with. He and i met on several occasions in London.
Let me share you something that happened to me today. I saw Dennis's ad where he said "if you would like to invest in personal growth, and you are faced with the situation that you have no funds, then this is something i can help you with".
What happened then? I felt anxious to phone Dennis and ask him for help ! That is ridiculous, isn't it? I mean, he and i are on the same path, we are best friends, and i won't let him touch my objections to retrieve the funds that would enable me to personally grow !
When i thought of what was going on, i came to realize that there exists in fact two or more opinions inside me. One is where i really want to further invest in personal growth. The Avatar Wizard course would cost 11k dollars, and that would be a great step forward for me. The other opinion is that i should not run out of objections to personal growth ; what if i had no more external reason that i could attribute my inability to grow to ? And then i wondered if this second opinion might actually have something to do with love. Deep inside me i can feel how i do not wish this second opinion to come out of the shadow and into the sunlight of my consciousness ; how deep down i know and acknowledge the fact that questioning my belief will alter them - and i fear the results. For one i might come to the conclusion that i spent all this energy prohibiting myself all these years, and that i would no longer be able to find any good reason why. And to the other i might now think that i am sacrificing something of me, to the better of the person i love in this act of keeping my low selfesteem; and that this other person, once i tell them about my act, would deny the importance of my act, or even tell me that it meant nothing to them.
I wonder if ever i could live with such a situation. And maybe this is why i refuse help.
Let me share you something that happened to me today. I saw Dennis's ad where he said "if you would like to invest in personal growth, and you are faced with the situation that you have no funds, then this is something i can help you with".
What happened then? I felt anxious to phone Dennis and ask him for help ! That is ridiculous, isn't it? I mean, he and i are on the same path, we are best friends, and i won't let him touch my objections to retrieve the funds that would enable me to personally grow !
When i thought of what was going on, i came to realize that there exists in fact two or more opinions inside me. One is where i really want to further invest in personal growth. The Avatar Wizard course would cost 11k dollars, and that would be a great step forward for me. The other opinion is that i should not run out of objections to personal growth ; what if i had no more external reason that i could attribute my inability to grow to ? And then i wondered if this second opinion might actually have something to do with love. Deep inside me i can feel how i do not wish this second opinion to come out of the shadow and into the sunlight of my consciousness ; how deep down i know and acknowledge the fact that questioning my belief will alter them - and i fear the results. For one i might come to the conclusion that i spent all this energy prohibiting myself all these years, and that i would no longer be able to find any good reason why. And to the other i might now think that i am sacrificing something of me, to the better of the person i love in this act of keeping my low selfesteem; and that this other person, once i tell them about my act, would deny the importance of my act, or even tell me that it meant nothing to them.
I wonder if ever i could live with such a situation. And maybe this is why i refuse help.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
ATTN: The two guides of IDEAL ME and REAL ME
What i am to say next is my personal experience / view. It definitely needs translation for any other person, because of the uniqueness of each individual person and her or his own experiences.
Inside each person there are two guides.
One guide is an outer guide, internalized, and yet it represents the voices from the outer world. Parents tell the child "you must do this or that, you must be such and so". These directions are both conscious and unconscious. The feed, the link, is where the child needs attention (= food) and the parents decide about the ideal child, the state and shape of the child that they approve of before it gets the attention it needs. After internalization - called a script in TA - the "you must" is changed into "i must". And then you think this ideal you, is really you, as if you were the one who owns this voice of "you must". This is the bully guide, the one that overrules the other, more timid, guide. Some people call this guide "my mind" or "my will" as if it were something outside themselves. Well they are right and they are wrong. "Letting go" is not about fight, about being strong. "Letting go" is not about being weak, about surrender. Neither one helps to get rid of the bully guide. What helps is to take ownership of the internalization ; to really stop wanting to escape whatever reality you're in. Picture you being in a prison, and the bully guide says : you may not leave the dungeon, not until your wish to be out has ceased to exist.
The other guide is the inner guide. Let's for now call this the body, or the inner child, the one that is the real you. This is the guide that says "I want" and "I do". This is the guide that IS action. This guide is like a shy child. It is not afraid of the bully guide, but it has no voice like the mind.
Then there is you. You are not your guides, but your guides are part of you. With your attention on either guide, you hear different stories. "I must" or "I want". The guides both talk to you, and you get confused, mixed up, the doubting process begins and procrastination is the result. Attention is psychic energy, and when you have used all of your energy to listen to the guides, there is no more attention left for yourself. You feel trapped. You feel an emptiness inside. You feel bored, want to escape this situation by finding something new ; only to enter another cycle where you feel the loneliness and all these things you wanted to run away from are still there, because you carried them with you all along.
The ideal me is a fake. It is what the environment wants from you. They are your helpers, not your friends.
A friend is someone who enjoys the real you. They want you in no other way than the way you are right now, including all of the potential that you have. They want to find out more about you because the more there is of you the more there is for them to enjoy.
A helper is someone who enjoys the ideal you. They don't pay attention to the real you, they pay attention to the ideal you, their own idea of who you are. And they look in the sky where the ideal you is, and they invite you in by saying "look !" and then they point at the ideal you. And you look away from the real you, and your attention goes to their ideal you, and you start to believe that that is you. And then you're in the expectation, the need to belong, the drama replay of the bully guide who says "you must".
For me, that is a sense of what I set out to achieve in life, where I'd like to see myself and the lessons I'm hoping to undertake along the way, for better or for worse.
My 5 cents: it is a mix of 2/3rd real me and 1/3rd the ideal me. This is the person saying "'i'd like to'" which is a mix of "i want" and "you may not" . This person says "i'm hoping" which is a mix of "i want" and "you may not".
Ask yourself this: what if you were to fully acknowledge the ideal me, who says "you must ask permission"? what if you no longer run away from this "voice" inside your head? what if this parent, this bully guide, what if it were acknowledged : "yes i hear you". What if you inserted 10 seconds between listening and reacting? What if there was a difference between what this guide wants you to do, and what you are going to do? What if you alternate between two states : one in which you would listen only and do nothing ; the other where you only do and never listen?
Isn't confusion about getting mixed up in these two states?
My quest for becoming an honest person is about taking responsibility for both guides. That i am their creator and their host, and that both need my attention in a nurturing way. Both want to help me, and wanting them dead (kill the ego, then you're ok) is not the treatment of an honest person.
Ouch, heavy stuff. I'd better post something funny. Oh well, lets post this first.
Inside each person there are two guides.
One guide is an outer guide, internalized, and yet it represents the voices from the outer world. Parents tell the child "you must do this or that, you must be such and so". These directions are both conscious and unconscious. The feed, the link, is where the child needs attention (= food) and the parents decide about the ideal child, the state and shape of the child that they approve of before it gets the attention it needs. After internalization - called a script in TA - the "you must" is changed into "i must". And then you think this ideal you, is really you, as if you were the one who owns this voice of "you must". This is the bully guide, the one that overrules the other, more timid, guide. Some people call this guide "my mind" or "my will" as if it were something outside themselves. Well they are right and they are wrong. "Letting go" is not about fight, about being strong. "Letting go" is not about being weak, about surrender. Neither one helps to get rid of the bully guide. What helps is to take ownership of the internalization ; to really stop wanting to escape whatever reality you're in. Picture you being in a prison, and the bully guide says : you may not leave the dungeon, not until your wish to be out has ceased to exist.
The other guide is the inner guide. Let's for now call this the body, or the inner child, the one that is the real you. This is the guide that says "I want" and "I do". This is the guide that IS action. This guide is like a shy child. It is not afraid of the bully guide, but it has no voice like the mind.
Then there is you. You are not your guides, but your guides are part of you. With your attention on either guide, you hear different stories. "I must" or "I want". The guides both talk to you, and you get confused, mixed up, the doubting process begins and procrastination is the result. Attention is psychic energy, and when you have used all of your energy to listen to the guides, there is no more attention left for yourself. You feel trapped. You feel an emptiness inside. You feel bored, want to escape this situation by finding something new ; only to enter another cycle where you feel the loneliness and all these things you wanted to run away from are still there, because you carried them with you all along.
The ideal me is a fake. It is what the environment wants from you. They are your helpers, not your friends.
A friend is someone who enjoys the real you. They want you in no other way than the way you are right now, including all of the potential that you have. They want to find out more about you because the more there is of you the more there is for them to enjoy.
A helper is someone who enjoys the ideal you. They don't pay attention to the real you, they pay attention to the ideal you, their own idea of who you are. And they look in the sky where the ideal you is, and they invite you in by saying "look !" and then they point at the ideal you. And you look away from the real you, and your attention goes to their ideal you, and you start to believe that that is you. And then you're in the expectation, the need to belong, the drama replay of the bully guide who says "you must".
For me, that is a sense of what I set out to achieve in life, where I'd like to see myself and the lessons I'm hoping to undertake along the way, for better or for worse.
My 5 cents: it is a mix of 2/3rd real me and 1/3rd the ideal me. This is the person saying "'i'd like to'" which is a mix of "i want" and "you may not" . This person says "i'm hoping" which is a mix of "i want" and "you may not".
Ask yourself this: what if you were to fully acknowledge the ideal me, who says "you must ask permission"? what if you no longer run away from this "voice" inside your head? what if this parent, this bully guide, what if it were acknowledged : "yes i hear you". What if you inserted 10 seconds between listening and reacting? What if there was a difference between what this guide wants you to do, and what you are going to do? What if you alternate between two states : one in which you would listen only and do nothing ; the other where you only do and never listen?
Isn't confusion about getting mixed up in these two states?
My quest for becoming an honest person is about taking responsibility for both guides. That i am their creator and their host, and that both need my attention in a nurturing way. Both want to help me, and wanting them dead (kill the ego, then you're ok) is not the treatment of an honest person.
Ouch, heavy stuff. I'd better post something funny. Oh well, lets post this first.
Saturday, April 08, 2006
EU: what is a servant leader?
The essence of servant leadership i find in a quote by Arthur Koestler :
The egotism of the social holon feeds on the altruism of its members.
For me, servant leadership is the application of the mechanism described above. The servant leader is at the border of the social holon.
She (he) is not an altruistic member, because she does not "give away" in the sense of a zero sum game. Nor is the servant leader the holon itself, because it is not her (his) egotism that is being fed. The servant leader is the point of least resistance between the holon and its members.
The servant leader pays no attention to the members. She (he) pays 100% attention to the social holon. The servant leader "feels" the total of the members' altruism / energizing life force / that brings the social holon into existence. And she (he) gives direction to this energy.
The holon can not live without its members. But the servant leader is "lifted" by the total energy of the group, and into the position that is like a crossroads ; it is the speed and the volume of the energy that keeps the servant leader going. This in effect is a state of "doing nothing", or "wu wei". For a better understanding please consult Joseph Jaworski's book "Synchronicity : the inner path ofleadership"..
The servant leader never "looks" at the members, because the members "look" at her (him) ; after all, she IS the leader. If she were to look at the members, it would confuse the members because then their attention would reflect back onto themselves, and their altruism ("giving") would necessarily cease to flow.
Unfortunately, there is no substitute for experience.
Nevertheless i hope that my writings have shed some light on my personal beliefs.
Hope this helps,
Best regards, Ron
Senator at Europe United
Author of "Bilocality and the inner world of attention"
The egotism of the social holon feeds on the altruism of its members.
For me, servant leadership is the application of the mechanism described above. The servant leader is at the border of the social holon.
She (he) is not an altruistic member, because she does not "give away" in the sense of a zero sum game. Nor is the servant leader the holon itself, because it is not her (his) egotism that is being fed. The servant leader is the point of least resistance between the holon and its members.
The servant leader pays no attention to the members. She (he) pays 100% attention to the social holon. The servant leader "feels" the total of the members' altruism / energizing life force / that brings the social holon into existence. And she (he) gives direction to this energy.
The holon can not live without its members. But the servant leader is "lifted" by the total energy of the group, and into the position that is like a crossroads ; it is the speed and the volume of the energy that keeps the servant leader going. This in effect is a state of "doing nothing", or "wu wei". For a better understanding please consult Joseph Jaworski's book "Synchronicity : the inner path ofleadership"..
The servant leader never "looks" at the members, because the members "look" at her (him) ; after all, she IS the leader. If she were to look at the members, it would confuse the members because then their attention would reflect back onto themselves, and their altruism ("giving") would necessarily cease to flow.
Unfortunately, there is no substitute for experience.
Nevertheless i hope that my writings have shed some light on my personal beliefs.
Hope this helps,
Best regards, Ron
Senator at Europe United
Author of "Bilocality and the inner world of attention"
Friday, April 07, 2006
EU: the statement on LinkedIN
I have a dream that communities become the servant leader of communities.
I believe there is a place for each one of us. This place i call home, a place you can not earn, a place no one can show you. When at this place, we experience flow. When we're outside this place, our attention can not flow and we need to get rid of the superfluous attention by solving problems; or if we run low on problems, by creating problems first and then continue solving them.
We need to acknowledge the fact that there is a place for each and every one of us. That being different is natural, because each of our places is at different locations. The state of abundance is the natural state of every human being.
Servant leaders are women and men who are able to receive the superfluous attention; not to keep, but to forward onto the essence of the community, the very reason why these people are together.
It is my place to be one of those servant leaders. That's where i feel at home.
I believe there is a place for each one of us. This place i call home, a place you can not earn, a place no one can show you. When at this place, we experience flow. When we're outside this place, our attention can not flow and we need to get rid of the superfluous attention by solving problems; or if we run low on problems, by creating problems first and then continue solving them.
We need to acknowledge the fact that there is a place for each and every one of us. That being different is natural, because each of our places is at different locations. The state of abundance is the natural state of every human being.
Servant leaders are women and men who are able to receive the superfluous attention; not to keep, but to forward onto the essence of the community, the very reason why these people are together.
It is my place to be one of those servant leaders. That's where i feel at home.
Thursday, March 30, 2006
ATTN: what is this feeling of existential loneliness?
In my theory of attention , that is to say, in the attention language, i consider two primary senses to co-exist. One is the world of physical senses, of feelings, as the awareness of the inner world of attention, with intuition as its source. The other is the world of mental senses, of emotions, as the awareness of the outer world of reality, with mind as its source.
I believe the feeling of loneliness is at the crossroads of these two worlds.
I believe the feeling of loneliness is at the crossroads of these two worlds.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
The future of networking
( this post originally from YouShouldMeet )
The future of networking is evolving into the field of intuition. Movies like What The Bleep Do We Know, books like The Field by Lynn McTaggert, and websites like www.manyworlds.com with the Epiture technology, they all lead us into the same future.
The future that i see is a future of synchronicity, the a-causale connection between people. And the people who are not dealmakers but people connectors, those people understand that their ego is in fact in the way of making any successfull introduction.
The future of business is going to change dramatically. And everything remains the same. What changes is the form, what remains is that teamwork creates a living organism.
Business is about the process of duplication, about getting the individual ego out of the way, and into the collectiveness. Arthur Koestler once wrote, "The altruism of the individual is the egoism of the group."
It may take some years to see this happen on a large scale. Some say the year is 2012, and fewer even include this year in their business development plan.
I look very much forward to what the future brings. And the future is what you make it.
Best regards, Ron
Thursday, March 16, 2006
ATTN: What is synchronicity?
Proposition 33. Things could have been produced by God in no other manner and in no other order than that in which they have been produced.
Demonstration. All things have necessarily followed from the given nature of God (Proposition 16), and from the necessity of His nature have been determined to existence and action in a certain manner (Proposition 29). If, therefore, things could have been of another nature, or could have been determined in another manner to action, so that the order of nature would have been different, the nature of God might then be different to that which it now is, and hence (Proposition 11) that different nature would necessarily exist, and there might consequently be two or more Gods, which (Proposition 14, Corollary I) is absurd. Therefore, things could be produced by God in no other manner and in no other order than that in which they have been produced. Q.E.D.
[source : Spinoza. Ethics. 2001. Hertfordshire:Wordsworth Editions Ltd.
I will spare you the Scholium 1 and 2.
To the question of what is synchronicity, i propose that (a) believing with all of my being, heart / soul / mind / all the rest, that the above statement is true, and therefore never to doubt reality, never to doubt the other person, and thus never to doubt myself ; and that (b) paying attention with all of my being, heart / soul / mind / all the rest, to HOW this is true, so in which manner and which order things are produced ; that this is synchronicity (by definition and in practise).
Thoughts?
Demonstration. All things have necessarily followed from the given nature of God (Proposition 16), and from the necessity of His nature have been determined to existence and action in a certain manner (Proposition 29). If, therefore, things could have been of another nature, or could have been determined in another manner to action, so that the order of nature would have been different, the nature of God might then be different to that which it now is, and hence (Proposition 11) that different nature would necessarily exist, and there might consequently be two or more Gods, which (Proposition 14, Corollary I) is absurd. Therefore, things could be produced by God in no other manner and in no other order than that in which they have been produced. Q.E.D.
[source : Spinoza. Ethics. 2001. Hertfordshire:Wordsworth Editions Ltd.
I will spare you the Scholium 1 and 2.
To the question of what is synchronicity, i propose that (a) believing with all of my being, heart / soul / mind / all the rest, that the above statement is true, and therefore never to doubt reality, never to doubt the other person, and thus never to doubt myself ; and that (b) paying attention with all of my being, heart / soul / mind / all the rest, to HOW this is true, so in which manner and which order things are produced ; that this is synchronicity (by definition and in practise).
Thoughts?
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Do i have a big EGO ? Please enlighten me...
I just finished a three days MLM (multi level marketing) college.
One of the things i learned was that in MLM the system comes first and the ego comes second.
What you really want to achieve is to duplicate yourself in other people.
I have a big problem with this. My journey on the question of "What is Attention?" was triggered by a desire that i have to be free, to be able to make my own choices. And when i realized that i need attention from other people, that my need of attention from other people was so big that i would , time and again , react instead of respond... that's when i wondered about attention and who is this i that needs attention.
With the MLM college came the realisation that , in order to be successfull, i need to duplicate myself and i need to get out of the way when my duplicates start to be active. In short, my ego needs to make room for the system.
I try to understand the lesson that the system is simple and the ego makes it complex.
I try to understand that the i is in fact the ego. It is the ego that needs attention.
So when i ask the question of "what is attention?" it is in fact the ego asking this question, and once again it is the ego begging for attention.
What should i do?
I do not recognise you as someone with a big ego but you seem to be saying that you are someone seeking attention. I do not believe it is the same thing.
Now you got me thinking !
Head in the clouds, feet on the earth. I feel stretched. What should i do?
For the last two years i researched head in the clouds. Basically what it taught me is that mind is death and intuition is life. The fear of death is the fear of not being able to return to death once i start to live.
When i was three, my grandfather died. My grandfather represents death ; i want to be with him. In family constellations, my grandfather would say : "go on, live for a while, and then you can join me here." The fear of saying goodbye to my grandfather is what fear of death means to me.
Since age 16 or so, i got heavily interested in the ancient world of the Japanese samurai. Samurai choose death each and every time, because they feel they can not live unless they choose death. When they fight with their swords, the most certain way to lose their life is by protecting (= paying attention to) their own life. Samurai can not win the fight unless they have gone through the process of visualising themselves dying in the fight, and no longer care (=pay attention) about it any more. When the opponent steps forward with their sword, they will not retreat but step forward without any thought of being stabbed.
As i am typing these words, just following my fingers and reading back what just came out, i see that these two paragraphs have really the same message. To live means to no longer pay attention to death ; it means to have faith , to trust , that whatever i do i can not be separated from my ancestors.
I hope this makes sense to me. And grandpa, where ever you are... I wish you were here with me. I wish i were with you. When i pay all of my attention to my intuition, it is then that i feel his presence. And have no more wishes.
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I-Name: =Ronald.Wopereis
Profiles on: Academici Ecademy LinkedIN OpenBC Ryze Soflow Spoke ZeroDegrees.
ClubLeader@ (A)ttention as a Product (B)elief Management (C)reativity Network (E)cademy Twente (R)on's own network - free attention training
Live it all...
One of the things i learned was that in MLM the system comes first and the ego comes second.
What you really want to achieve is to duplicate yourself in other people.
I have a big problem with this. My journey on the question of "What is Attention?" was triggered by a desire that i have to be free, to be able to make my own choices. And when i realized that i need attention from other people, that my need of attention from other people was so big that i would , time and again , react instead of respond... that's when i wondered about attention and who is this i that needs attention.
With the MLM college came the realisation that , in order to be successfull, i need to duplicate myself and i need to get out of the way when my duplicates start to be active. In short, my ego needs to make room for the system.
I try to understand the lesson that the system is simple and the ego makes it complex.
I try to understand that the i is in fact the ego. It is the ego that needs attention.
So when i ask the question of "what is attention?" it is in fact the ego asking this question, and once again it is the ego begging for attention.
What should i do?
I do not recognise you as someone with a big ego but you seem to be saying that you are someone seeking attention. I do not believe it is the same thing.
Now you got me thinking !
Head in the clouds, feet on the earth. I feel stretched. What should i do?
For the last two years i researched head in the clouds. Basically what it taught me is that mind is death and intuition is life. The fear of death is the fear of not being able to return to death once i start to live.
When i was three, my grandfather died. My grandfather represents death ; i want to be with him. In family constellations, my grandfather would say : "go on, live for a while, and then you can join me here." The fear of saying goodbye to my grandfather is what fear of death means to me.
Since age 16 or so, i got heavily interested in the ancient world of the Japanese samurai. Samurai choose death each and every time, because they feel they can not live unless they choose death. When they fight with their swords, the most certain way to lose their life is by protecting (= paying attention to) their own life. Samurai can not win the fight unless they have gone through the process of visualising themselves dying in the fight, and no longer care (=pay attention) about it any more. When the opponent steps forward with their sword, they will not retreat but step forward without any thought of being stabbed.
As i am typing these words, just following my fingers and reading back what just came out, i see that these two paragraphs have really the same message. To live means to no longer pay attention to death ; it means to have faith , to trust , that whatever i do i can not be separated from my ancestors.
I hope this makes sense to me. And grandpa, where ever you are... I wish you were here with me. I wish i were with you. When i pay all of my attention to my intuition, it is then that i feel his presence. And have no more wishes.
----
I-Name: =Ronald.Wopereis
Profiles on: Academici Ecademy LinkedIN OpenBC Ryze Soflow Spoke ZeroDegrees.
ClubLeader@ (A)ttention as a Product (B)elief Management (C)reativity Network (E)cademy Twente (R)on's own network - free attention training
Live it all...
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