PG: the invitation

Dear Marije,

I decided to accept your invitation to have a look into my family system.
I would like to participate in the constellations event of april 4+5, 2003.

The point is, i have been very ill for more than a week now, and i notice how in difficult situations like these, the desire for death supports me like a friend, full of understanding and with respect.

I would like to know more about my friend.
Best regards, Ron

PG: the cleanup

I'm lying in my bed for several days. I cannot eat, i cannot move. Even when i try to turn my body it hurts like a dog. It feels like all my cells are dying, one by one and all at once. I think i'm dying.