PG: dynamic of nearly touch and then run off

Today, I am walking with a friend along the Pieterpad, a cross country path here in the Netherlands. We are talking about our lives, and i tell her what happened at the Avatar course in 2002, the Family Constellations event in 2003 and the incident with my dad that same year.

I suddenly realize that there is a dynamic in my life that makes sense of all these experiences i´ve had. I visualized putting a window between me and the other person. I can see them, they can see me, but we can not touch. I want to get closer to them. Then i feel the glass of the window. I realize i can not touch them. And then i want them to go away.

This reminded me of the child in the glass box.